Friday, March 20, 2015

Cuties and waiting for blessings

McKenna, my one-year-old, LOVES Cuties - you know, those little mandarin oranges? She's crazy about fruit in general, but if I whip out a mandarin, she'll drop everything on her plate and make grunting noises until she has some in her mouth. And then she inhales them. Girl's got like 9 teeth so she must just be swallowing them whole, I don't know. What I do know is that, to keep her happy, I want to give her multiples at a time, and quickly.

But if I give her too many, she may not know her limits, then eat too many and choke, so I break them up before she gets them. Or, if I give like half of one at a time, she might bite into it, letting all the juices drip down her chin...and her arms...and her multi-fold neck...and her stomach, making a huge mess for me to clean up later. (We cut out the middle-man and just have her eat naked, so at least it's not lots of laundry.) The point is, I want to give her the "just right" amount of food. Not too much for her to get super messy, and not so little that it's not satisfying.

Yesterday, I peeled and broke one open, and the first section I picked up only had two pieces to it. I wanted to give McKenna as much as possible to keep her happy, so I quickly separated them and gave them to Ariana, because she would be content with those for a while while I broke up the rest of them for McKenna.

Well this was a problem. McK got so mad that I wasn't giving her exactly what she saw and wanted right away, and to add insult to injury, I gave what she thought should have been hers to her sister! But! I had McKenna's in my hand, almost ready to go. I just needed her to wait for about 10 more seconds, and she'd have more than she needed.

I see so many God/parenting parallels in my life I almost can't keep track of them all. When we see blessings freely handed out to others and sometimes withheld from us, I think it's easy to get angry at God or frustrated that He doesn't give us what we're clearly wanting and ready for. And doesn't He say that he knows what to give us, better than even our human parents do? Why does He withhold blessings He knows we want? Why can't He answer our heartfelt prayers, even when we are trying our absolute hardest to please Him?

I know the individual answer is different for everyone, and ultimately, all I know is God loves us. Why couldn't I have just given McKenna the two slices to make her happy while I made more for her and Ariana? In my mind, I wanted to give her the most of what she wanted, what I knew would make her happy for a longer time. I certainly don't love Ariana more than McKenna, nor was I trying to punish her by making her wait a little longer. In my short perception, the best answer was the one I acted out.

Then, in God's long perception, He must know what is best for us, yes? He must know that if He gives us one blessing now, maybe it cuts off opportunity for seventy blessings later - which is really difficult when we see friends getting one and five and twelve blessings now. Why not us? There are probably millions of reasons. But each life is different, and each person is important to our Heavenly Father.

Like I said, I don't know everything, but I know God loves us. And sometimes I see that love reflected (in really imperfect ways) in my parenting. Sometimes you see it too. I'm grateful God gives us these insights to understand Him better.

And here's a really great article on this. Definitely better written and it includes all sorts of other situations.

Monday, March 9, 2015

Chris Soules loves ______???

So glad to finally know what happens!!

All the "panic attacks." -Chris H. Lol even they know it's fake. 

So surprised he really stays in Iowa for every episode. 

"The decision I'm going to make could change my life." Could?

"Just tell me which one to pick..." Chris, I'm going to introduce you to a family problem called enmeshment. 

"These are my mom's favorite flowers." -Whitney. Awwwwww!!

"We made a baby in the lab." -Whitney
"You win!" -Chris' family. Read: Grandbaby hungry.

He seems underwhelmed. Anxious, maybe? Maybe I'm overly nervous.

Spends his Whitney day talking about Becca. Trouble. 

I think it's because she's the forbidden fruit. 

She's leaving when it's still light in the middle of winter. How early is it?!

She's SO invested!

That's what I was thinking, Chris' brother! It's the chase!

Oh Becca's wearing a black bra.

Those parents are so patient to eat with their kids on their laps. Of course, I use the word "eat" loosely.

"Ok Becca let's go chat!" You haven't touched your food!!

"It's going to be long distance." Farm life is not conducive to long distance relationships. Even living together it'd be hard to find time together.

"I know what I feel and that's more important to me than what she's saying." -Chris. If it's what he feels she feels, fine. But what she's saying also speaks volumes. Pay attention to the words coming out of her mouth!

Mom is asking hard questions, and pushes her hair behind her ear. She's good. Makes you comfortable while forcing you to tell the truth.

Why CAN'T she just say, "we need to talk"??

Oh they still have one more date. You're good, girl.

I can't imagine how Whitney would feel watching this if he picks her, when all this is pointing to Becca.

"Something you've never seen on the ATFR before."

"This is one of the biggest Bachelor viewing parties." -Harrison. There's a bigger one somewhere?

Chris' face on the way to the door looks so excited. Who's it going to be???

Oh, Becca. I wish I didn't like Whitney so much. 

It's like the Notebook. "G**d***** Allie what do you want?"

"Get in the water! Get in! I'm sorry baby. Would you please just get in the water?" Lu, that was for you.

"Why don't you think you're in love with me?" YES. Ask the right questions!

Hey where's that on-call therapist they had in Brad's season?

"The one thing I know is that I want you." -Becca. Isn't that love?

"There's steps that are preventing-" -Becca.
"What are the steps?" -Chris.
"I don't know!" -Becca.
Then how do you know there are steps? She's killing me.

"What would I do in Arlington?" -Becca. "Now we're getting somewhere!" -Chris. He seems like he'll be a great communicator in a fight.

That was a good fight. I really thought one of them might get up and leave.

Is Chris the reason we are still going through daylight savings?

There's something to be said about the feelings for each girl. Yes, you want that natural chemistry he seems to have with Becca. But that fades. What, I think, is more important, is the deeper level of comfort and natural flow you have together.

That candle is distracting. 

I love you Whitney. But we've heard a ton about how invested you are. Let's move on.

I do love how natural they seem in his house. They are freaking adorable.

"Something about the simple life." -Whitney. With millions of dollars. 

"What makes you feel so certain?" Man he's bringing his A-game tonight. 

"No matter what happens." Yikes. 

I'm glad she's getting some realism in there. 

She gave him a scrapbook!

How much did they spend to dress up that barn?

"Something that happens on the ATFR that changes everything!" Damn you, Chris Harrison! Why you got to ruin all our fun??

I wish I had seen all the seasons so I could figure out what happens!

Now I have no investment in what's going to happen in the episode. 

Becca's first!! It could change after, but I'm still a little relieved.

Actually one of his better breakups. 

She's showing no emotion. She seems so relieved!

She's not even a little crying.

I feel like this is one of the most real seasons we've seen. And Chris has grown on me a lot.

Whitney's driving up and Harrison has me all worked up that none of this even matters.

"On a scale of 1-10, I'm off the charts." At least it wasn't, "On a scale of 1-nervous..."

If I were Chris Harrison, I'd be so tempted to whisper, "It's you!" when we hugged.

So glad Chris is smiling as she walks up.

What a terrible way to get proposed to - if you don't know if he's going to propose or break up.

"It's not work. It's natural." That's love. I mean, love IS work. But it shouldn't have been so forced - like with Becca.


Like, pumping my fists happy. They are perfect.

"Whitney IS the person for me." Thank you!! For being ALL IN. 

Oooooh it was so hard with Becca because he kept wanting to play catchup. He saw the potential but she was always a few steps behind. That must have been frustrating.

"Not looking back." You're a good man, Chris.

"She's only watching our dates." That's so smart.

"I'm smart because I chose her." Awwww. Very true.

Smart in this season, too, since he made out with everyone.

About his long hugs - I mean, I think maybe it's because he's so compassionate? :/ Which is a trait you want but not when it's about your exes.

Why is it such a big deal Becca didn't fall in love? I'm actually surprised it doesn't happen more often.

It's obvious that they've both moved on. Stop dragging it out. 

I hope Kaitlyn feels happier seeing this.

Their reunion! That was freaking adorable.

Their relationship is so real and just straightforward that all these scripted questions are pretty pointless.

I like to hear these better things for Whitney on Chris' side.

"We still have much more to get to." -Harrison What else? It's funny watching him ask the questions that usually bring out the drama when there really wasn't any.

"I like knowing he gave everything 100%. He gave every relationship the attention it deserved. It makes me more secure in what we have." -Whitney. Actually a good point.

Jimmy Kimmel???

"Can I sit between you?" -Jimmy
"It wouldn't be right if you didn't." -Chris hahahahahah

"Ashley thinks she's on the Price is Right." Jimmy Kimmel! dying

"Are you making love?" -Jimmy Kimmell
"As regularly as possible." Settle down we don't need to know about your sex lives.

He brings out a cow LOL

"His name is Juan Pablo. He doesn't speak any English." HAHAHAHAHAH

And Chris Harrison whispering, "Ees ok, ees ok!!" THE BEST. He really hated JP.

New Bachelorette!! Kaitlyn! Kaitlyn! Kaitlyn!

Aww I was really hoping the crowd was going to start chanting her name!

They're really split? Between who?


How is Britt a serious contestant against Kaitlyn! I think the audience was pretty clear about who they preferred.

Maybe they just think she would make good TV???

My happiness for Chris and Whitney is equalled only by my disappointment.

Oh it's awkward. It's awkward.

Didn't Kaitlyn like, openly dislike of Britt a few times?

This is such a bad idea.

What are they going to do?? Have the men give the girl they want to stay the rose?? This is so weird. Like, I'm glad they finally got the idea to switch things up, but not like this! If they choose Britt I will be SOOOOOO disappointed!! Kaitlyn would be the best!